Hello reddit, this is my first time posting on this subreddit but I would like to ask anyone reading to please help me figure out what tf happened to me. Ok yesterday, sadly on 4/20, I had a very bad experience with weed after being a regular (1-2 times a day) smoker for a little over a year now. I have scoured the internet for similar experiences but can’t find any. Also I know my descriptions of how it felt sound extremely weird/crazy but please read carefully and believe me. This is going to be a long one so strap in.
After smoking only one bowl of a strain i was familiar with (Cali Mist) possible mixed with some of my bf’s brothers weed (unknown strain) I was feeling really good but it soon turned for the worse. It began as a headache behind my forehead and soon spread to my whole head. It got worse and worse, throbbing and feeling really hot, especially where the back of my head connects with my neck. That was not the scary part though, as it was still just pain and I knew what to expect with that.
(From here on is where it gets difficult to describe)
Suddenly, I felt a wave of pain/contracting/chills going from the top of my head to the base of my neck. It was not just on my head though, it felt like it was on my actual brain. These continued happening BUT were paired with this intense feeling of existential dread. I felt like I was being pulled into the void right before the wash of pain and when these “brain chills”, as I nicknamed them, happened, I felt nothing. It was like I had felt death (ik i sound crazy) as my mind disconnected from my body. I am an atheist so that is why I said it felt like death, as I believe nothing happens after we die. I couldn’t even close my eyes to try and sleep it off because instead of seeing black when I closed them, I saw kaleidoscope-type images OR saw the nothingness again which made me so scared my eyes would shoot open, worried that if I looked anymore, I would see some Birdbox suicide inducing type shit.
This overall feeling lasted for about an hour and a half, but it came in waves. I would feel semi-fine for like five minutes but then it would come back. It also traveled all across my body, causing me to have uncontrollable shaking.
It finally subsided after I ate like 10 quesadillas. If anyone has experienced anything similar to this, please let me know because it was by far the scariest thing I have ever experienced. Should I slow down smoking weed? Should I go to a mental health doctor? Should I just move on with my life and try not to think about it? idk man im scared. Thank you for reading though 🙂
TL;DR I get really high and experienced painful headaches and dissociation that felt like death.